NEED A SEC TO BREATHE!

Have been very busy coping with everything in my life now..
School, work, studies, driving lessons and CCA.
Been lagging behind for school work now.
Really needa catch up ASAP
IF NOT
at the end of the year,
I'll be dead.
Dont wanna waste my parents money again this year
Gonna try and do my best
shall briefly update about my life recently...

WORK
But to start off,
gotta quit my job totally,
resignation letter already submitted
this is the THIRD time alr.
hopefully they let me off
I'm really hoping that my bosses and managers will understand my decision
because my work is really taking up too much of my time
having to juggle between work and school
i can hardly breathe alr
i admit it was partly my fault for making a rush decision in deciding to join full time
but den back den i didnt have so much commitments
and i didnt expect that i would have to go to school for longer hours
having to work and study is far to exhausting
not enuf rest time
no time to revise my work
so hope to get it settle asap
so that it wouldnt be too late for me to catch up with my school work and studies.
i still love working there,
love the people there
just that i cant anymore
gotta think of myself and be selfish for once.

School
so far, school has been good.
trying not to miss out any lessons or be late.
but den again
am so tired that i really cant force myself out of bed and get to school
thus missing lessons
if i were to force myself to sch
i would end up falling asleep in class
or feeling very restless
cant concentrate well.
i really wish that i can enjoy school life any other of my frens are enjoying now.
but anyway, thats not possible so i should just stop hoping and dreaming about it
given my current circumstances.

CCA
Been enjoying my current CCA,
I'm much happier to be back in track as compared to being in SRC
less expensive cca
and ppl here are more genuine
somewhere that i can have a stronger sense of belonging
dont like ppl who join cca for the sake of making frens
SRC is more of a socialise club which doesnt suit me at all
am glad that i didnt continue this year
so yup
so far
did Sunig and nike10k
and i missed my 30km run this morning coz of waking up late
again coz of work
being too tired
thats why i really needa get my life back by quitting my current job
42km in about 1month time,
am worried that i cant complete it
but whatever that comes along i will just go with it la
one step at a time:)

after nike 10k, 

that following wed had my share of fun with the track ppl

den back to reality again.

having said all these, there are still 1million things on my mind

not feeling too good

felt so burden like before

hate being the eldest at home really.

sometimes, i really think its too much for me to cope

i just need to rant.

not only family issues

there is so many other things that i need to think and worry about.

but am too lazy to type out everything here, 

maybe another time when im free

i will.

practically wasted the whole day today

nothing productive from me
as usual slept thru the day
like a pig.
maaybe i should sleep less
even though im alr have a servere lack of sleep
might help me in slimming down more,

off to bed.
goodnight world.
hope tmr will be better.