27September2011 kBOX + honeymoon dessert:DD

supposed to be out studying after kboxing

ended up being not productive

went for honeymoon desert after having pepper lunch for dinner:D

the mango pudding wasnt very nice

think orchard hotel's mango pudding is much nicer hehe

I'm feeling very tired

gt no idea why

there's sch tmr!

early morning wake up quarrel with my mummy

forever about money

idk why

but ya had been arguing over and over about the same thing

sick and tired of it

i just find it really very very tiring to be working and schooling at the same time.

but I'm not even complaining about it

but why is it that everytime u still have to argue with me over money matters.

comparing with other people's child?

they can afford nt to do well

but to u all i cant

just coz of one failure that is i didnt do well enough for alevel

I've got enough scoldings and everything from u all

all you all know is to scold and scold

but ever understand how i felt?

did u all ever give me a chance for me to speak up?

i hate staying at home for a reason.

i just need to feel some love and care

i know u all do love and care for me

but i seriously dont like this kind of love that u all are giving

its like its been pressing me so so so hard that i felt like im really suffocating

everytime u all will be saying i dont tell u all where i go

what I'm doing outside

but every single time

i tried to talk to u all about school

no matter what i say

i can already predict what yr answers will be in the end

the problem just lies with me

just me

idk why

no matter what i do even its not my fault

in all of yr eyes its still my fault

i dont even have the chance to even finish what i wanted to say

without even getting the full pic of the story

its just my fault

rather believe what the others say than to believe me

i just gave up

gave up trying to talk to u all

talk to u all about my life

telling whr i am going everyday

what am i doing everyday

hows school and everything

just everything

I'm just tired

plain sick and tired of going through all these over and over again

cant u all see???

see that I'm trying

and still trying..

but now

i really felt like giving up sooooo muchh

I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO TALK TO,

SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS ME,

SOMEONE WHO HAVE THE PATIENCE TO LISTEN TO ME...