22June2011 Love is scary...

Went to boat quay with JiaJia ytd. Went to drink abit. From there things started to happen, JiaMin started talking to me on fb. Had a small chat with her whih somehow ended up things get messy. I dont know why. Guess things arent totally over between the two of u. I really wish to be out of this thing. If I can, I would rather choose not to be here, I really dont know what to do. I came into the picture, totally dont know that things arent over between u and her. I dont want things to get ugly. Am I sacarstic in one way or the other? I dont know. I didnt talk to u about anything for quite some time. That's because I'm giving u time to think, to settle down and think about what u really want. 沉默不能代替说有的答案。If u keep quiet, thinking that everything would be better, u r wrong, coz in the end, everyone would be hurt. I never know what u r thinking. I wish to and I really want to know. But no matter what i ask, u will never tell me.
And the fact is, u cant leave things just like that, why not make things clear to all of us.

I'll still be waiting, till the day when i really dont feel anything for u anymore. All I can do now is, try my best to be happy and not to think about YOU. 如果能把你忘了，做回像以前那样的好朋友，也许这会是最好的结局吧。我不想再次被你伤害，不想再被爱伤害，我害怕那痛苦的感觉。

我也是人，也是需要人来爱，来疼的。我已经很尽力地获得开心了。不喜欢回家的我，已经把这个当做一种习惯，不容易改掉。应为认识了几个会照顾我的朋友，让我觉得在外面，或是在做工的时候，回事我最开心的时候。

Lastly, thanks to JiaJia for ytd night. ILY<3

说真的，当我和她开始说话时，我感到非常害怕，不知道她想要知道的是什么。