sometimes i wonder, really...

if you really think that your fucking ah beng bf is more impt,
den go and fucking live with him
dont come back and scream and shout at family
lie to daddy and mummy about BBQ
but every time go and find that ah beng
if u think he can let u live a proper life den go ahead sua
be his ah lian gf
dont everyday come back talk on phone
so noisy
if he that good go shout at him la
he do stupid things to u
why DONT U SHOUT AND SCREAM at him
i had enough of yr crap
if u really think he that big
that u have to talk to him every single sec
den fucking go stay with him dont come home and shout at us

yes this reminds me of how stupid im in the past
that a guy can be my whole world
can do everything for him no matter how he treats me
but now
i can tell u
i will nv do a single shit like what i did in the past
i have learnt my lesson
its not worth the hurt.
i have alr given up on such things
maybe its just a part of growing up.