PeiQi's

2012-02-13T00:25:00.001+08:00

I hate it when ppl agree to something without having the intentions to fulfill it. Coz they will be wasting ppl's time.

2012-02-12T00:26:00.001+08:00

Hate this feeling.
It's the worst feeling ever.
The feeling that I detest the most!

11 February 2012

2012-02-11T09:00:00.001+08:00

Ytd night sent hy to the airport.
At least I get to spent his last few hrs in sg before he flys off.
Met Abi at clementi before traveling down to bugis to try to finish his scrapbook at tcc.
Had our dinner there too. :DD
We watched the show called "romancing though thin air"
Not as awesome as I thought
After that met up with the rest to sent him off at the airport.
The scene whr I see him and his family saying goodbye is hard for me to take alr.
Trying not to look if I can.
At the airport, we ate and took photos and he hugged everyone of us.
That the time when I really couldn't help it but cried.
I hate it when ppl leaves me! He's coming back i know.
But the thought that no one is here for me anymore to take care And look after me feels scary.
Think I've been relying on him too much
He's the one that I go to always when I have problems.
And he's also one of the reason why I'm still going on strong even till today.
He said it's time for me to grow up.
If I can I nv would want to grow up.
Because I realise the older we are,
The scarier the world gets and things gets more complicated.
But for now at least I know theres still ppl like Alfred who will still be here for me:)
The only thing that I'm glad about is that iPhone still can keep us connected!
Really look forward to seeing u back here, bro!

My next target: visit Aussie in August!
My mummy alr said yes!
I just need to prepare the moneyyyyy!!!

10 February 2012 empty promises

2012-02-10T12:30:00.002+08:00

"Promises are meant to be broken"

sounds cliche

but totally true

in reality, how many promises made by the people around us are kept?

it will just keeps us waiting

till the way we gave up on it

and when that day comes it actually doesnt matter whether that promise is kept or not

if we dont think back

do we ever realise that actually almost non of our promises are fulfilled by the ppl who promised them?

So, the next time if anyone tells me

"I promise..."

I'll just reply...

"Don't promise me anything, if u want JUST DO IT!" :D

10February2012

2012-02-10T01:39:00.001+08:00

I passed my BTT!!!
49/50!! Super happy.
I can now go for my driving lesson! :D
Things around me seems to be taking a thorough change recently.
Shall nt mention what it is.
Maybe I should just let things rest and die down for abit.

8 February 2012 sick again:(

2012-02-08T20:49:00.002+08:00

supposed to give tuition today,

last minute cancellation by the kid

so instead of giving tuition,

I'm here hunting for photos

gotta rush to print the photos tmr if not cant get it back on time..

felt lethargic for the entire day.

especially with the damn bad weather

every where i go under the sun

i can feel that it's like burning my skin

went home after sch to sleep

because i really felt so tired

thought its coz I woke up super early

coz it's been some time i woke up at 5am~

after that woke up with fever

hope i can get well by tmr

there's work and...

BTT test tmr!

hopefully i can pass!

i wanna start my driving lessons asap!

if not gotta pay another $50 for course extension in JUNE!

thats all for today!

off to eat dinner:DDD

2012-02-08T00:00:00.001+08:00

7 February 2012 the past.

2012-02-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

U know who u are.
only today i realise that u have already unblock me on facebook.
only today den i hear from my sister that u still asked about me.
glad that u are happy being tgt with her now.
thanks for all the memories u have given me.
be it happy or sad.
and i wanna say
that i still miss you.
doubt u will ever bother.

but whatever it is, hope that u will stay happy and last long with her:)

6 February 2012 i've given up looking or the reason why.

2012-02-06T02:30:00.000+08:00

look at the amount of things i gotta do everyday!

everyweek my schedule is this packed-.-

this week is much better den last week alr

coz I've temporary stopped working at NYDC till march

I'm in sch now, with the girls

just finished choosing our timetable for the london lecturers

prelims is in 3 weeks time... argh!!!

i dont know ath, brain's empty and almost as good as dead...zzz

on sat, i went to malaysia with my brother and frens

had a great time there

that's his last time there before he flys off to aussie on friday.

gonna miss him so much

ytd had yusheng and steamboat for dinner

super bloated:D

but the sad thing is I'm getting fatter:((

i needa lose weight!

i wanna go back in to track and field!

soon! if i have the time;(

bro, liyan, alicia, alf, bright, abi, jc and kenneth came over to my house for blackjack:)

didnt play overnight because many of us have got things on today

so ended early and all went homed.

exams are coming! omggggg

i think i really really need help

need to study hard REAL HARD!

gonna meet alfred to study later.

maybe hongyu for dinner:)

and did i mention another thing before?

i hate guys who sweet talk every other girl friends of theirs

one word to describe u--> disgusting

no matter how nice a person u are,

but this is u

and i hate friends who make use of me

I've been thinking about it recently

maybe like what my bro and mummy always say,

dont be stupid

learn to be smarter

i wish i know how to.

4 february 2012!

2012-02-04T19:43:00.001+08:00

Blogging from Malaysia! Hahahaha!
Having nice dinner here.
Just finish karaoke.
Gg back to sg soon!
Meeting up with another group of frens!:)

2nd February 2012

2012-02-03T00:35:00.001+08:00

What's wrong with everyone?
Or there's something's wrong with me?
Or did I do anything wrong in anyway?
Why does everyone seems to be ignoring me?
It's used to different.
Everything just changed.
Changed so suddenly that I myself don't even know where do I belong.
It just feels that I don't belong anywhere,
Not in sch, not at work.
I can't find whr that place is.
Been trying very hard
What I've been doing everyday is repeating.
Felt that life is so meaningless with just work and sch, work and sch.
Time for myself?
Maybe when I'm able to squeeze some extra time out.
I'm afraid.
Afraid that things would get worst.
Worst den how it is like now.
Theres great difference.
It's obvious.
Towards me and the others.
Enough of guessing.
Maybe I should give up looking for the reason, for the answer that I've always been looking for.
Maybe I really should because highly likely there won't be a day that I can find the answer.

I'm so lost.

29January2012 I'll appreciate ppl that put a smile on my face:)

2012-01-29T02:36:00.000+08:00

SRC appreciation dinner--> handball! :D

Reunion dinner:)

My supper when I'm back in malaysia:D

missed the times when I'm still a kid.

My dragon! finally done after like weeks-.-

I was sabo-ed by hy he hacked into my phone! >:|

these photos roughly summerises what happens when I've not been updating here

My 3rd day of work at NYDC wasnt that pleasane

coz i lost $50

there's a thief there

common in FnB line i guess

let's just hope that one day u will learnt yr lesson when u get caught:)

yesterday, went to work at movenpick.

got scam-.-

thought it's 10 per hour, end up 8/hr

but at least not that bad

received quite a few angpows

and yes..

I ENVY THEM!!!!!!!!!!

envy the life that they are living

envy how fortunate their children are

not really in the materialistic term

but its how much they are loved

they got to do what they really like in life

their family have the ability to let them study whatever they like

and they dont have to study so hard like what normal students like us do

we study hard but dont get to study what we like just coz our grades arent there

but to them its easy just study overseas

and one thing is that this is another different world that I'm looking at

those that are really fortunate and highly educated

listening to what they are talking about makes me feels different

i can say that its a life that i will never ever get to experience in the whole of my life

unless a miracle happens

which is highly likely impossible

so stop dreaming

back to reality

still study + school -.-

I'm alone at home now

all my family are in malaysia

think they'll only be back tmr

and sometimes i really felt useless when i cant do ath to help ppl that are always there for me no matter what

hope that u will understand

i wanna help

its just that i really dk what i can do to make u feel better

or make things better

but no matter what

my dear brother!

I'll always be here for u

if u need someone to talk to

I'll help u as long as its within my ability

thanks for taking care of me so much

i appreciate it!

I'm also proud to say that I am halfway back to being a good girl.

no late night outings.

the only and most part that isn't back is studying! :(((

i needa get focus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

21st January 2012

2012-01-21T23:43:00.001+08:00

Been rather moody lately. Maybe it's coz I'm too tired. Or maybe its just coz I'm sick of everything. School work school work. Never ending. Just want to have a break from everything. Really really need one. Coz I really dk how much longer can I continue holding on like that. Crying doesn't solve anything. Yes nothing. I really just feel like letting everything out at once. I really am tired both mentally and physically. There's just too much Things I wanna say. I dont know how to express myself. I just cant think of any words to descibe everything. Yes I club. So what? Does that means that I'm very open minded? Does it mean that I can just go around kissing any guy? Do I look like I'm such a person? I swear I nv kissed any guy before in my entire life. So I would appreciate of ppl can stop assuming things I'm okay with everything. I just hate it when pol assume things that aren't true. Please don't make promises that u can't keep.

20January2012
universal studios!:D

2012-01-20T17:20:00.001+08:00

Went to uss with my brother and frens.
Really enjoyed myself.
The unbelievable part is that I nv ever expect myself to go onto the 2 roller coasters.
The red and the blue one.
Wasn't as scary as it looked.
Played the other rides too
But mostly all are roller coasters.
I'm so gonna miss my bro when he flys off.

2012-01-20T17:12:00.001+08:00

Wtf is wrong with me?

17January2012

2012-01-17T14:00:00.001+08:00

I'm getting myself back to reality
Back to how things should be
Getting my priorities right
Doing what I should do.
No more frequent partying
no more unnecessary late Nightouts
Studies should be my priority rather den working.

Sometimes I just can't understand what people are thinking. When girls are close to guys they'll start saying that the girl is flirty. But den again, when Girls are close to girls, others just get jealous and get pissed off. So what should we do?

And what I can say is friends are definitely important and are ppl that everyone can't live happily without having. :)

2012-01-14T00:38:00.001+08:00

Working today reminds me of those times.
Yes, things have changed.
Everything isnt the same anymore.
Everything shall be kept as sweet memories from now on.
Coz I know it will never be the same again.

13January2012

2012-01-13T09:38:00.001+08:00

it's Friday the 13th!
Am on my way to sch!
Super duper shag.
Slept like two hrs only. Zzz
Still considering if I should turn up for work later.
Been working till super late the past few days.
Looking forward to the uss trip on Monday :D

Hate ppl who wanna be close to so many girls. And when ppl start talking about it, they start to get so worked up about it.
Stop telling ppl how many days and months exactly u have been single. No one is interested. One word for u, desperate! :D

12january2012

2012-01-12T05:20:00.001+08:00

2012-01-10T02:51:00.002+08:00

no money how to take exam?? :((

9january2011 gotta wake up!

2012-01-09T13:53:00.001+08:00

I'm very very angry with myself. What have I been doing since last august. Really have to wake up and stop dreaming. Stop leaving in my own world. I feel so lousy with my brain being empty. All I know is work and going to sch for attendance. Wasting my parent money. Exams are coming. Exam fees not even paid. What am I doing? I myself got no idea. Everytime I step into the sch I felt like I'm living in a very different world from them. It's like they are studying. They know what's going on. But for me, everytime I step into the lecture theatre for lessons. I felt so lost, felt so helpless. It's like I can't catch up with the rest. I spend almost all of my free time working. Distracted by things I shouldn't concentrate on. When I'm at work I kept thinking about sch work, but I can't stop working. Coz If I don't work, I've got no money. I'm spending too much time working. Sometimes I really wish I'm someone who can't study in the past. At least I've a clear path of where I'm heading to in the future. Now it's like. I'm stuck here in uni doing something that I don't really have total interest in. And if I don't get my cert there's no whr I can go with that stupid alevel cert. sometimes,. I just find my life very tiring. Got too many things to handle. And I've decided to quit my cca after my first year. I want to get back on track. Get back to how things used to be like. Study, play sports and be happy. I needa learn how to study again. Prelims is in march. I really dk how to take that exam. I need to be more disciplined! I need to prioritize. From this moment onwards, my life is about sch and work, please no more other distractions or commitments for me till im more discipline! If I'm able to spare extra time next year, I wanna join track. I missed that feeling. That feeling of having an awesome track team. I need to keep fit, instead of having so much nightlife and suppering. Shall not stay out late So much anymore till my exams are over. I really gotta wake up!

8January2012wasted trip

2012-01-08T20:24:00.001+08:00

Didn't turn up for work today.
Coz couldn't wake up on time.
I can only say that it's not we don't wanna go, is we really couldn't make it there on time.
So met Andrea.
Slack for the whole day,
Eat for the whole day.
Regina came.
Met up w bro and alf for awhile
Went down to rasa to take pay.
And that cashier always don't open.
Wasted trip. Hate it max.

And I don't like guys that sweet talk every girl frens that they have.
I don't say doesn't mean I dont know ath.

7January 2012

2012-01-07T04:00:00.000+08:00

On 5th Jan...

woke up at noon

went to old airport road with xiyi to get some tau huey (Y)

very very nice tau huey:D

den went home to prepare food for picnic!

Marina barrage with the girls:)

after that went slacking at bishan w andrea while xiyi left for movie.

short post, gonna head to bed and rest for awhile before leaving house at 630 for work:/

6 January 2012 updates

2012-01-06T10:26:00.001+08:00

31stDecember2011 - 1st January2011

had new year countdown @ the siloso beach party:D

working @ the same time

been playing the whole night

only doing serious work for a few hours.

started work at 7pm, all the way till 1pm!

super slack day at work haha!

really enjoyed playing with all the drinks,

splashing at one another

yes, and our white shirts became pink!

coz of all the redbull, cranberry juice, beer, coke, and whatever drinks that km used-.-

went for delifrance breakfast with Andrea after beach party and before working for breakfast

after work went out all the way till night time

super shag after that.

didnt managed to sleep long enough to recover den went out to meet my brother and frens for cycling at ubin!

2nd January 2012

Woke up early to meet my bro and his frens at Tamar merah mrt
I'm the last to reach. :/
Took bus to the ferry terminal
Went to ubin and started cycling
The up and down slopes there are fun.
Enjoyed myself. :)
Second time up at the viewing tower
Isn't as scary as the first time:D
Wanted to have coconut but dk why I always dont have no coconut luck-.-
Coconut is sold out! D:
So we decided to have our dinner At changi village.
Bought coconut drink with coconut flesh as a sub for the REAL coconut.
Finally I get to eat stingray after craving for it for so long.
After that went to bro's house to slack use com before having my second round of dinner and den heading home.
I'm not looking forward to the day when no have to leave sg to study in Aussie. :,(

3rdJanuary2012
Someone I didn't expect to talk to MSG me on the new year. So we ended up arguing about the past. U talked to me about what's hurt, scars , wounds or whatever crap. I'm not interested. Coz if u really understand what all these things mean, u wouldn't have done what u did. No point saying sorry for things that you've done about one year back. What's the point seriously. U r the one thy came an talk to me first. Showing me attitude when u have gt no idea way really happen that night. I dk why we r still talking about hat happened in the past. Everything is held back for so long. That's lots of things that I wanted to know, many questions that I don't have an answer to. yes I got most the answers either from u or from what i saw, what I heard. I appreciate that. But u din have to say it in such a way that u are answering me coz u want me to get over the past. Let me make things clear now. Once and for all, please leave. Leave my life once and for all. I don't wanna see u ever again, I don't wanna hear from u ever again. I wished that u had never ever exist in my life. I don't need you here to remind me of everything. Maybe I'll be happier. Everything that happened is the past. I don't wished to talked about it anymore. And please stop yr goodbye thing I really hate that. As if I want to talk to u that much. Yes, it used to be "I can't live without u" in the past. But now, things are different. It's no longer that so please stop thinking and speaking as though things are still that way. U can be the guy with the thickest skin that I've ever seen. U said I forced u to think of who u really like. That's nt my fault. I'm glad to did what I've done. If nt, I'll still be stupid enough to be with someone that love someone else and my me. It was a mistake. The greatest mistake I've ever made to be with u. A mistake that I would never forget, a mistake that bring me one of my greatest regrets. If only I could turn back time. Things would be different. I hate it's when u speak in such a way that I only have u in my life. U used this as an excuse for not letting me go when I wanted to leave. If that's what u really meant u wouldnt ask asked me all those rubbish when I wanted to leave. What ever that happened between u and the girls is not my problem anymore. As long as they stop coming to disturb me, i wont give them any problem. Stop acting like u know everything. I swear i wont drop even a single drop of tear for u anymore. Leave me for good, please.

4January2012

2012-01-04T01:53:00.001+08:00

Want to update my blog with my new year resolutions. Just don't have the time to use com.
Will update when I'm free.
Back to sch later.
It sucks.
I hate school.
Let's hope that I've gt time to update what has been happening these few days.
Quite interesting and happening though.
Stay tuned:)

29December2011 我懂，我也知道...

2011-12-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

there are people in life that i really appreciate
i want them to stay here in my life forever
u all know who u r:)
yes i want to thank ppl who have been taking care of me
ppl who treats me well
yes, still ppl come and go
only true frens stays..
just being random..

and yes...
i really really miss the old me
i want to be back to who I'm
the me 2.5 years ago.
always smiling
always happy
never have to be sad
but its just that
i cant seem to be that way anymore...
i dont know how
really got no idea how i did that in the past
i just hate the me i'm now
hate the things that im doing now
things just shouldnt be this way

lots of things in my mind
lots of things i wanted to say
its just that i dk how to put it
i dk what i should do
i dk how should i face some of the problems i have now.

I'll stop if this goes on.

Its just more like i'm disturbing.

malaysia trip with family:)

2011-12-29T21:13:00.001+08:00

in short, malaysia trip was quite boring
missed sg alot,
missed my frens
sucks when theres no reception
I've decided that i shall keep whatever that have I've thought with me
shall not write it out here.

Xmas party at hy house! :D

2011-12-29T20:01:00.004+08:00

after meeting the girls,
went over to hy house for a small xmas party:D
more of a drinking session
some of them looks real funny when they are drunk
some did thngs that i dont like
just makes me feels disgusted
and the thing is dk if u r genuinely drunk or what
one moment u are drunk
next moment u r sober and apologize
went home in the morning and off to malaysia at night:)i will definitely miss my brother when he goes to aussie in about 1 month time:(

不是大家想看见的我。

2011-12-27T05:35:00.001+08:00

Just back from Malaysia not long ago.
Lots and lots of stuffs been going thru my mind due to the large amount of free time I have.
This also shows how bored I'm. And how much I miss Singapore.
Shall fill this space soon with what I've been up to for the past few days when I'm free:D
Coz it's now back to reality, back to my busy life....

23December2011

2011-12-23T00:57:00.002+08:00

Met up with the girls.
Liying Andrea and yuting.
Had aston's baked potato.
Went for movie.
Watched Alvin and the chipmunks.
Nice movie!:D
after that went timbre @substation.
Saw this super heart melting scene.
The guy is really super sweet to the girl.
Omggg. I think any girls would just be touched by it.
Now I'm at hy's house. :)

And something to clarify.
I'm not treating anyone as a spare tyre or whatever.
I already made myself very clear didn't I?
If just talking to him is that I wanna make use of him den I rather not be his fren.
I appreciate that he's really nice towards me.
I really gt no intention or whatsoever.
If telling someone whom u think u trust about yr problems is a problem, den I don't see a reason why I should anymore....

22December2011

2011-12-23T00:49:00.001+08:00

Went for src xmas party.
Photos are on fb. :)
Been to powerhouse.
Had fun with the group.
Stayed over at bro's house
Enjoyed myself alot
Gonna miss hy when he goes Aussie in like less den 2 months time.

20December2011 night out again!

2011-12-21T12:42:00.002+08:00

went bugis to get items for xmas party tmr!
saw hy there with his frens
had dessert while waiting for time to pass
den went prawning with andrea the boys at punggol area
cab fare home was 35-.-
super ex-.-

yes and i really really wanna know the reason why
i need a reason why!
im nt asking for anything
as long as things remain the way they were
its alr good enuf for me...
但是我想最后故事的结局
还是我一直以来都害怕的
我真的不想去面对
HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

19December2011 just hope that things stay the same forever

2011-12-21T12:34:00.003+08:00

went down to rasa to take money
den down to town to shop abit before starting work @OHS
been some time since i last went there
was quite clumsy that day
i dk whyyy
after that met up w jon andrea and mt
went to some park at punggol
enjoyed playing the swing there

i could felt the distance
its getting further and further
whyyy

15December2011 trip to Malaysia with my brothers!:D

2011-12-21T11:57:00.005+08:00

went malaysia with my brothers
supposed to have a few more others but all mia at the last minute
nevrtheless we had fun
been some time since i last went out with them
we ate at some seafood restaurant with a very nice view
after that we came bck to sg early coz we have gt sim pageant to attend
supposed to win a lucky draw prize that night but i left my ticket wi th my fren
so... not fated hha
party and home after that
and something to clarify
I'm totally awake that night and i rmb what happened!

14 December 2011
shagggg

2011-12-14T22:08:00.001+08:00

As usual Late for econs lect again-.-
This time is super duper late.
So couldn't get there in time to tap my card.
Practically slept thru the lecture
Including poa lect-.-
I always hate it when it is here.
Coz I don't like the super shag feeling.
Just felt like sleeping the whole day. So I went home early.
Sudden cravings for chicken wings
No idea why
So I got myself a packet of chicken rice for lunch.
And slept all the way till now-.-
Woke up by a call from hy.
Still feel like sleeping.
But gotta get up for dinner!
Malaysia tmr! :D
Been some time since I went out w them.
And to Malaysia.
Lookin forward;)

14December2011 just another day.

2011-12-14T04:22:00.003+08:00

just gt back home from work.

super tired.

bought my supper on the way home

just finished eating

am going to bed soon!

sch tmr:(

but 2 weeks break is coming

next week next week:D

off to bed!

13December2011 I'll hold yesterday close to my heart:)

2011-12-13T02:18:00.005+08:00

get to see eclipse 2 days ago

just nice andrea and i was at the clarke quay bridge at that time after my family gathering:)

got a garfield and a white jacket from my aunt for christmas:D

but just nice i bought a grey cardi before gg over to her house-.-

this photo was taken from online i dk why the words are there LOL

ytd went to help out for the SIM transformers

collected newspaper

had quite alot of fun

but im super tired!

but still

went home,

bathed

and out i go again!

hahahaha:D

went down to fullerton bay hotel's bar.

nice view, nice ambiance

had champagne

and some htht going on

glad that u shared:)

will see how things goes in future!

at least i know i'm happy now!

went to have some horfun at boat quay

spent $30 cabbing down to waterfront to meet up with the rest

was quite pissed at the cab uncle-.-

shall not mention it here

spent sometime slacking at waterfront

went home after that

this morning woke up late

so was like 10 mins late for sch

cant rmb if i took my attendance-.-

heard that I've a 2 weeks break coming up:D

after sch went to town to watch "magic to win"

initially was quite boring but the later part was better

and homed after that

and here, I wish Jackson good luck for yr army life,

hope u will have a wonderful time joining civil defence

take care alright!:)

yes and its all over my fb about the owing of money case

make sure u do what u said

if not i wont give any more chance

police report straight:)

9December2011 ｏｕｔ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｍｙ　 dear andrea　ａｇａｉｎ！:)

2011-12-09T02:47:00.003+08:00

supposed to watch twilight today

heard that its not very nice so we decided to go for another movie

end up it turns out to be worst-.-

went out of the movie theatre halfway

had wanton mee at graffiti cafe

chicken rice, beancurd and soya bean for dinner

went shopping around

bought a pants and bought sticky!

this time not a packet

its a jar:D

htht with andrea outside the SOTA

went home after that

made a big fuss on fb today

i just think u deserve it:)

多希望时间会把一切都变成灰烬

让我什么都不记得

让我真的把一切都忘掉

可是，

好像，

我身边的每个人，每件事一直都在不断的提醒这我，

提醒着我那些回忆，

那些感受过的痛，

我一点都不好受。

有时候，

真的好想好想痛痛快快的哭一场。

就觉得自己的心已经累了

什么都不想再去做。

而对你，我总是猜不透你到底在想些什么。

你能说说让我知道吗？

2011-12-09T02:39:00.004+08:00

7December2011

woke up with bites on my leg

dk by what

but its super itchy

skipped econs lect in the morning coz i couldnt wake up

im losing track of time losing track of my sch work

needa buck up

but it just seems like i dont feel like going on anymore

but still went to ohs to get my pay

and den went to oc alone to study:(

went home after that

no reply! :/

2011-12-09T01:24:00.003+08:00

1December2011

went zouk with Xiyi and her frens,

i seriously think that the world is too small just too small.

so small that it can become so scary.

saw someone,

just reminded me of the past.

i hate it

coz the feeling just sucks.

yes this is what happened.

i reached and sat down with xiyi and her frens drinking,

somehow when i turned just happened to saw him behind.

yes i made a call to someone

someone that first came to my mind

i dk why but him:)

he saw me i know,

but we just decided to ignore each other

maybe its coz she's there.

yes i really think that she's too cunning too slutty

got bf alr still wanna flirt

yes i would called it flirt

act one high hold ppl's hand

and him even better hugging her.

wts

all these things happen last time i guessed

and I'm the stupid one happily agreeing to let them continuing gg to club and doing all those things

i just find it too disgusting to the extend that i really cnt take it

whats worst is her fren,

damn freaking thick skin.

kept asking me who am i

yes Im his ex so wad? seriously so what?

u got any problem with it?

if u have can come and look for me directly

u and yr slutty fren stop flirting around with other ppl's bf

its very sick u know?

after that went down to neverland to find jack mt and jon

they were with a whole big group of frens-.-

jon was damn high

yes went for supper after that

bak kut teh at balastier

and jon was there doing funny things

biting breaking chopsticks

spilling sauce even before food arrives

scolding random ppl on the streets-.-

standing in the middle of the road when flagging cab

even to the extend of flagging hired cabs LOL

and one last thing just small gestures from u makes me happy:)

hope u know who u r

sometimes I'm really thinking

你对我那么好值得吗？

我说的你不是上面的你

而是另一个对我特别好的你。。。

2011-12-09T01:19:00.001+08:00

28November2011

2011-12-09T01:05:00.005+08:00

27November2011

went for movie with the rasa grp of ppl:)

quite a nice show,

brought back alot of memories

made me feel that I've to do whatever i want in life

only one chance

missed it = no more

hahaha

bought sticky!:DDDD

appreciate ppl around me

yes i feel that I'm the happiest person on earth now

with all my frens around me

hope that all these things and all these ppl will stay forever...

went for sakae buffet after that

ordered so much food that all of us couldnt even finished

in the end have to pay for all the food that we cant finished=.=

after that went timbre@substation

den homed after that:)

27November2011

2011-11-27T02:04:00.002+08:00

不是已经忘了吗？

22October2011 updates of my life!

2011-11-23T02:52:00.001+08:00

went kbox-ing with Andrea today!

had mos for lunch:D

damn niceeeee

after that went ikea with her sister and her maid

had a great feast over at ikea:D

went shopping and bought quite alot of things today

hate it when i stepped into bugis street or orchard shopping malls

always spend alot

anw bought 3 tops and 1 shorts 1 shoes plus 2 eyeliners:)

seeing how andrea takes care of her sister really makes me feel so touched

i really cant imagine how it would be if its me in her position

maybe thats wads making her stronger, much more matured

YES I AM VERY FORTUNATE:D

....and i really wonder now, what should i do??? zzzz

really...

2011-11-23T02:21:00.004+08:00

21NOVEMBER2011

haha enjoyed myself on this day! going out with my andrea!

had astons for lunch

watched the apple of my eye!

not as good as what i expected

it was mainly about dirty jokes

i thought it would be some love story with a good ending-.-

after that went timbre with andrea mt jack and jon

andrea left even before mt came.

coz she has to be home early.

went for bak kut teh at balastier after that.

chat for awhile and headed back home:)

2011-11-23T01:05:00.003+08:00

19NOVEMBER2011

went out with jac and xiyi to meet up with edwin and his frens

he just came back from overseas

just did the same old routine drink and dance.

but didnt spend much time on the dancefloor this time round though.

I'm glad that I've alr cut down on partying alot alr. :D

not gonna start it again

so i guessed no SCHOOL BASH FOR ME:)

went for ba chor mee after that.

its been a really long time since i last had that ba chor mee

damn niceeeeee

cabbed home at 6am and went to work the next morning reaching at 11am when im supposed to work at 10am:/

yes and one thing my dear girl XIYI has injured her finger at work

lets hope that she gets well soon!:D

2011-11-22T22:51:00.004+08:00

14 NOVEMBER2011

HANDBALL CHALLENGE 2011!

yesss finally its our turn to say we ORD loooooo!!!

finally our event is here

was late for the event on the first day.

was quite shag even though i was practically standing there and walking around the whole day

was hit by the ball afew times

seems like the ball like me alot LOL

ended well and played hb wih the hb commitee:D

den gotta rush off to meet my mt, jack, jon, jon's girl and andrea for movie!

watched 23:59

was quite scary!

i did scream in the cinema

esp the face of the grandma and the creature was damn scary.

after that went for a few drinks and homed!:D

2011-11-22T22:39:00.004+08:00

17 NOVEMBER2011

went for outside catering with OHS at the old police academy.

ended late, cant wake up on time for sch the next day

skipped my lesson... zzz

18November2011 Src Day!

2011-11-18T11:05:00.005+08:00

i think my src day group was awesome!

it rained the whole day, we made a wasted trip to sentosa

but the night segment was still ok

coz of the rain, most of us was alr in the sian mood when we reached sch

but still it ended well

made some new frens

and i think i'm very fated to always be in the green group!

more updates of these few days when I'm freee

been very very busy these few weeks...

going out now to meet Andrea Chew<3 for LUNCH!

9November2011 Bits and pieces of random thoughts

2011-11-09T01:22:00.003+08:00

Finally booked my BTT!

22nd December!

i want to get my driving license asap!

best by next year june:D

couldnt book my BTT before this coz i didnt have a credit card or debit card,

PLUS my laziness to travel all the way down to driving centre just to book

so keep on dragging till now:/

anyway back to whats happening these few days,

have been working alot ALOT

its been so long since i last worked such long hours

but this time not in OHS but in RSR hahha

the people there are great too:D

met alot of new frens

honestly, i missed the times where i would spend all my time at OHS with my frens

missing the times where I had alot of fun doing midnight.

not because of anyone but because of the amount of fun and laughter

and sch started so no more such things for me:(

will look forward to the next holiday.

these few weeks will be busy and tight for me

gotta start studying soon

always said this but nv ever did:X

coz got no time

yes, i wished one day gt more den 24hours! best if its 240hours!!!!! :D

so that i can do my work, go to sch, study, and do everything I WANNA DO!

maybe its my mum being random or something

19 yrs of my life and two days ago

she just ask me to find a bf-.-

which she has nv ever allowed me to

not even having a close guy fren

but now her thinking changed

i was quite shocked about it!

but its considered a good thing that she finally allow huh

hope it wasnt too late. hahahaha

but wouldnt it be good to have someone who care for u and protect u? hahaha

but whatever it is, i still feel that friends are more important

coz they will always be there when u need them!

I'm quite happy to have friends that care, no matter in UNI or at work:)

and to my old friends, ESP FUJI

if i dont text u or ask u out,

doesnt mean that i forget u all as my frens alr!

its just that i got no time,

but i promise,

during my sch holiday,

I'll definitely block out some time for u all! :D
that's all and I'm off to bed!

(I'm happy today, coz i gt to drink all my fav drinks!)

GOODNIGHT & SWEET DREAMS WORLD^^

31October2011 :(

2011-11-01T02:05:00.003+08:00

found this piece of glass in the wound on my feet

pain muchhhh

for 5 days and i just realised it-.-

imagine walking around on this piece of glass (OMG)

30October2011 halloween!!!!!!

2011-11-01T01:39:00.007+08:00

Went to Halloween with hy, alfred, alicia, gab, 2nick, jan, eugene, jan's bro (daryl i think), ben, evelyn, huiping, hope i didnt miss out anyone.

met hy earlier, so that we can buy our makeup stuffs

after shopping at bugis

went down to clarke quay riverside to put on our makeup

damn AA

everyone kept looking at us although we already tried our best to hide behind the stalls-.-

so finished out makeup and went to meet up with the rest

we spent most of our time standing outside liang court not knowing whr to go-.-

so in the end everyone separated

some went butter and some went holiday inn to drink.

bumped into zx and vincent at cq~!

zx frens are damn daring!

and i think that vincent's gf is cute!

bumped into yw and his frens on the way to meet my frens after buying prata to satisfy my hungry stomach.

i dont have the mood to drink

so didnt touch alcohol

went down to grand hollywood to look for Grace

bumped into an old fren there LOL

stayed there for awhile and went down to bukit timah to meet le and jh for supper.

cabbed home after that!

People who tolerates are not idiots

But rather being cruel to themselves

29October2011 LONG TIME NO SEE!!!!

2011-10-29T03:03:00.005+08:00

finally a meetup after so long:D

realised alot of them changed.

this shows how long I havent seen them

yup so went or movie called "in time"

its a nice show!

interesting too!

den went for dinner at astons

finally pool

didnt expect to see a whole group of sim ppl there!

yes and went home after that.

so thats all

GOODNIGHT!!!!

28October2011

2011-10-29T02:54:00.003+08:00

went to shangri-la 8noodles for dinner!

haha tgt with jannnn

wasnt as awesome as i thought but its a nice place for peaceand chilling out:)

went for HB meeting after that

and off to timbre for FOC outing

the band was damn awesome!!!(Y)

outing continued even without our OGL

i have decided not to respond to the outings she organise next time:)

because i think end up she still wont be coming

not for the first time alr

so yup:D

and thanks JX for sending us home!

27October2011 another partying session with fod mates

2011-10-29T02:07:00.005+08:00

went clubbing with FOD mates again.

went to butter this time round

my third time there

saw alot of SIM ppl there

and best part is i saw valerie!!!!

guessed its coz its the holiday week

hahahahaha

but sorry frens if i stepped on yr toes that night

coz i was a little bit too high

but hope we all had fun!

i guessed i wont be attending the friday FOD outing

sorry guys

23October2011 FRIGHT NIGHT! (Y)

2011-10-29T01:01:00.002+08:00

hahaha get to act as a ghost for fright night!

so excited! thanks to andrew and his fren, Faith

slept over at dairy farm moe adventure centre with the fright night ppl

they were very accommodating and very nice ppl:)

i crawled the whole night

its quite funny to see how some of them reacted

enjoyed myself

was super shag after the event

managed to sleep for 2 hours plus before going for work!

21October2011 back to exercising!

2011-10-21T01:35:00.002+08:00

Back to healthy activities.

decided to cut down or stop all unhealthy activities if possible

monday went for some dodgeball trg w jess

tues played dodgeball,

managed to get into top8

though I'm not very good at it:)

coz I've got awesome players in my team

on wed i joined ODAC for PT!

supposed to hit the gym with jann just now

but she forgot to bring her sports gear to sch

so we will be hitting the gym to day instead:D

feels happier and fresher after exercising

but I'm aching all over! argh..

time for bed.

goodnight!<3

15October2011 TGIF!

2011-10-15T01:07:00.005+08:00

i was on time for sch today! :D

so proud of myself!

during the 5 hr break before math lect

we went ikea for lunch and have some fun:)

after class went to town for some food!

it was awesome!

manage to do some shopping today hahhahaha

im feeling super tired now!

have been enjoying my uni life so far^.^

somethings

are

just

meant

kept

secrets

forever:)

11October2011 finally one day of rest! :D

2011-10-12T01:30:00.006+08:00

i dont know why i always meet bad guys.

i hate it seriously.

woke up super late today:D

didnt even know that it rained.

basically, just slacked at home for the rest of the day

gave tuition at night.

tmr early morning have got sch!

gonna be along day again tmr.

and yes,

i guessed its too late for u to regret now

thats coz u dont appreciate it in the past:)

11October2011

2011-10-11T01:20:00.004+08:00

Skipped school today coz i woke up late.

I really enjoyed the sports chalet:D

And

I finally know how stupid and dumb I am hahaha

3October2011 filming for handball advertisement.

2011-10-04T01:05:00.003+08:00

在一起叫梦, 分开了叫痛
是不是说, 没有做完的梦最痛...

love this verse from jay chou's song.

just somehow one day,

there will be someone who gets bored of talking to u.

2October2011 take it as a joke from u

2011-10-04T01:02:00.001+08:00

went partying after work:)

ytd was a bad day

and today it was quite an unforgettable one

met some millionare

thought that he was lying

turned out to be true

drank a lil' bit too much

could only rmb part of what happened when i paid for the cab

but i really enjoyed myself.

looking forward to next wed! :D

1October2011 The most unlucky day of my life.

2011-10-01T10:05:00.004+08:00

Wasn't very happy about everything that happened today.

but uni life wasn't as bad as i thought it would be.

I've many gfs now:D

its what I've always wanted badly since JC.

met a molester today.

shall not post about it.

dont wish to rmb that incident

so My FB was hacked too

gt no idea why

but was really damn unlucky

went for night cycling

cycle the whole night.

that's all for now.

我已经分不清，你是友情还是错过的爱情。

2011-09-30T10:03:00.000+08:00

30September2011 dont wish to continue living in the past

2011-09-30T02:15:00.003+08:00

there's something wrong with my laptop:(

always giving me problems

so couldnt type in chinese.

just back from sch not long ago.

I'm very tired!

just finished doing up the minutes for today's meeting.

there's sch tmr morning.

i really wished that i could forget everything about u

like what u said take it as i've woke up from a beautiful dream

let u and me both keep only the wonderful memories of us

take it that u have nv exist in real life

but everytime when i heard that song that particular song

it would remind me of the pain that u had given me

i would start to feel afraid

afraid of being hurt again

i felt so lonely at times

sometimes all of a sudden i just felt that sudden sadness in me

which i couldnt describe

even halfway thru joking with my frens

i dk why

i really wish that feeling would just go away

the thing is i dont have any feelings for u anymore

not even a lil' bit

but still the amt of hurt u have given me

made it so unforgettable

its just too torturing for me

any idea how could i escape from this?

i just wish that i could lose this part of my memory...

forever...

27September2011 kBOX + honeymoon dessert:DD

2011-09-27T23:12:00.005+08:00

supposed to be out studying after kboxing

ended up being not productive

went for honeymoon desert after having pepper lunch for dinner:D

the mango pudding wasnt very nice

think orchard hotel's mango pudding is much nicer hehe

I'm feeling very tired

gt no idea why

there's sch tmr!

early morning wake up quarrel with my mummy

forever about money

idk why

but ya had been arguing over and over about the same thing

sick and tired of it

i just find it really very very tiring to be working and schooling at the same time.

but I'm not even complaining about it

but why is it that everytime u still have to argue with me over money matters.

comparing with other people's child?

they can afford nt to do well

but to u all i cant

just coz of one failure that is i didnt do well enough for alevel

I've got enough scoldings and everything from u all

all you all know is to scold and scold

but ever understand how i felt?

did u all ever give me a chance for me to speak up?

i hate staying at home for a reason.

i just need to feel some love and care

i know u all do love and care for me

but i seriously dont like this kind of love that u all are giving

its like its been pressing me so so so hard that i felt like im really suffocating

everytime u all will be saying i dont tell u all where i go

what I'm doing outside

but every single time

i tried to talk to u all about school

no matter what i say

i can already predict what yr answers will be in the end

the problem just lies with me

just me

idk why

no matter what i do even its not my fault

in all of yr eyes its still my fault

i dont even have the chance to even finish what i wanted to say

without even getting the full pic of the story

its just my fault

rather believe what the others say than to believe me

i just gave up

gave up trying to talk to u all

talk to u all about my life

telling whr i am going everyday

what am i doing everyday

hows school and everything

just everything

I'm just tired

plain sick and tired of going through all these over and over again

cant u all see???

see that I'm trying

and still trying..

but now

i really felt like giving up sooooo muchh

I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO TALK TO,

SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS ME,

SOMEONE WHO HAVE THE PATIENCE TO LISTEN TO ME...

25September2011 没有做完的梦最痛。

2011-09-25T12:00:00.006+08:00

had an enjoyable clubbing night ytd...

rushed down after work

drank quite alot ytd

supposed to go west coast with my family today

but i skipped going coz was feeling quite shag and tiring

coz of all the alcohol taken in ytd

my stomach feels weird

school's on monday and gotta work after sch

again

YES AGAIN!

也许我真的不应该太天真

不能随便就相信别人

我说我不管了

我说我忘了

可是我真的忘了吗？

真的放下了吗？

我希望是。。。

有时候，我真的觉得很累

23September2011 Just some thoughts :3

2011-09-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

School's been great so far..

made alot of new friends..

hope these friendships can really last forever:D

skip half of maths lect today AGAIN, yes I DID IT LAST WEEK!

was super tired and shag today.

i need to get a proper part time job!!!

need money for school:(

shall post in chinese,

just feels that it allows me to express myself better.

也许这样也好，我对你还有一些些的怀念，

也许是应为你所做过的一切，

也许是应为那时候你让我感到那一点点的幸福

但是我可以很肯定地说，

我已经不再喜欢你，

不再爱你

因为一切都不值得

我也不想再笨下去了

也不想继续的活在过去

最近也发生了一些些的事情

让我无法再继续的相信莫些东西

因为我害怕

真的害怕了

有时候我真的好想

好想找个人和我谈谈心事

让我痛痛快快的哭一场

哭完了

就把事情全都忘掉

重新开始

但是有这么容易能够忘记过去吗？

people take me as a clubber

but how many knows why i club?

if only they understand the pain that i had

maybe they'll den understand what is clubbing to me:)

BASTARD 27th June2011

2011-06-27T04:10:00.002+08:00

I realised YOU are a BIG BASTARD. I talked to her over the phone. Somehow gt to know alot of things．I wish i could just go up to u and scold u. If u arent serious about her den just let her go, stop giving ppl false hope

2011-06-25T04:20:00.001+08:00

还是决定放弃了，因为你什么都不想要。

2011-06-25T04:16:00.001+08:00

突然之间，我感到非常开心。原来你还是没把我忘了。可是这爱情值得我去等待吗？

23June2011 人不可貌相:0

2011-06-23T16:34:00.004+08:00

I enjoyed my night out yesterday night. Had Steamboat and den Party the night away. Drank quite abit. Met quite afew friends in the club. Something that shocked me happened, shall not mention it here Maybe this is the way how i should lead my life till I totally forget about u. At least I know I'm diverting my attention to other stuffs, at least it wouldn't hurt that much. I've decided to forget u. Maybe being friends is the best solution. I'm still trying my best to.

22June2011 Love is scary...

2011-06-22T15:39:00.001+08:00

Went to boat quay with JiaJia ytd. Went to drink abit. From there things started to happen, JiaMin started talking to me on fb. Had a small chat with her whih somehow ended up things get messy. I dont know why. Guess things arent totally over between the two of u. I really wish to be out of this thing. If I can, I would rather choose not to be here, I really dont know what to do. I came into the picture, totally dont know that things arent over between u and her. I dont want things to get ugly. Am I sacarstic in one way or the other? I dont know. I didnt talk to u about anything for quite some time. That's because I'm giving u time to think, to settle down and think about what u really want. 沉默不能代替说有的答案。If u keep quiet, thinking that everything would be better, u r wrong, coz in the end, everyone would be hurt. I never know what u r thinking. I wish to and I really want to know. But no matter what i ask, u will never tell me.
And the fact is, u cant leave things just like that, why not make things clear to all of us.

I'll still be waiting, till the day when i really dont feel anything for u anymore. All I can do now is, try my best to be happy and not to think about YOU. 如果能把你忘了，做回像以前那样的好朋友，也许这会是最好的结局吧。我不想再次被你伤害，不想再被爱伤害，我害怕那痛苦的感觉。

我也是人，也是需要人来爱，来疼的。我已经很尽力地获得开心了。不喜欢回家的我，已经把这个当做一种习惯，不容易改掉。应为认识了几个会照顾我的朋友，让我觉得在外面，或是在做工的时候，回事我最开心的时候。

Lastly, thanks to JiaJia for ytd night. ILY<3

说真的，当我和她开始说话时，我感到非常害怕，不知道她想要知道的是什么。

Unspoken Words

2011-06-21T17:24:00.000+08:00

Decided to start blogging again, cause I feel the need to. The only place where I can express my feelings and never feel rejected.

Its been like less than 3 months ever since i started working in OHS. Many things happened. So much that I myself also feel so lost. Indeed i enjoyed working at OHS. Because of the people I met there, let me feel that I've never had friends like that before, willing to be there whenever I need them. Even though at first I felt like I'm from a totally different world from them, but i prefer lives like theirs, live a day as it is, as long as I'm happy, nothing matters. I'll never forget this part of my life where work occupies most of my time, hanging out with friends till late night. If I've the choice, I want time to stop, stop at this particular time of my life.

To Fuji:

I've never ever thought of treating u as a substitute of JH. Like what u said, u treat me as a sister of yours, and i treat u as my brother. I dont know why u get that idea that I'm treating u that way. I know u dont feel like talking to me now. But i just want u to know that, I told u everything that is coz i trust u as a close fren. U were always there for me when Im sad. I'll never forget a friend like you. Just hope that u dont be angry with me anymore. I dont like you shouting at me. I prefer the way u used to talk to me, hanging out together...

我心里还有很多说不出的话。

PeiQi's

11 February 2012

10 February 2012 empty promises

10February2012

8 February 2012 sick again:(

7 February 2012 the past.

6 February 2012 i've given up looking or the reason why.

4 february 2012!

2nd February 2012

29January2012 I'll appreciate ppl that put a smile on my face:)

21st January 2012

20January2012 universal studios!:D

17January2012

13January2012

12january2012

9january2011 gotta wake up!

8January2012wasted trip

7January 2012

6 January 2012 updates

4January2012

29December2011 我懂，我也知道...

malaysia trip with family:)

Xmas party at hy house! :D

不是大家想看见的我。

23December2011

22December2011

20December2011 night out again!

19December2011 just hope that things stay the same forever

15December2011 trip to Malaysia with my brothers!:D

14 December 2011 shagggg

14December2011 just another day.

13December2011 I'll hold yesterday close to my heart:)

9December2011 ｏｕｔ ｗｉｔｈ ｍｙ dear andrea ａｇａｉｎ！:)

27November2011

22October2011 updates of my life!

18November2011 Src Day!

9November2011 Bits and pieces of random thoughts

31October2011 :(

30October2011 halloween!!!!!!

29October2011 LONG TIME NO SEE!!!!

28October2011

27October2011 another partying session with fod mates

23October2011 FRIGHT NIGHT! (Y)

21October2011 back to exercising!

15October2011 TGIF!

11October2011 finally one day of rest! :D

11October2011

3October2011 filming for handball advertisement.

2October2011 take it as a joke from u

1October2011 The most unlucky day of my life.

我已经分不清，你是友情还是错过的爱情。

30September2011 dont wish to continue living in the past

27September2011 kBOX + honeymoon dessert:DD

25September2011 没有做完的梦最痛。

23September2011 Just some thoughts :3

BASTARD 27th June2011

23June2011 人不可貌相:0

22June2011 Love is scary...

Unspoken Words

20January2012
universal studios!:D

14 December 2011
shagggg

9December2011 ｏｕｔ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｍｙ　 dear andrea　ａｇａｉｎ！:)